Healed By Truth
No one said it would be easy to heal, or to remain Catholic...
But it's been one crazy adventure!

    No one said it would be easy to heal from the wounds of sexual abuse, or to remain Catholic, after all I've been through. I've wanted to run away from God and the Church half of the time, trust me. After many years of professional counseling and therapy I was able to psychologically and emotionally heal and deal with the trauma of my sexual abuse. But I still battled with the faith-related aspects of my life that triggered my PTSD. I had a lot of questions for God, and wondered how he could heal my "God-related" wounds.  There was something deeper, something stronger than my fear of being wounded by God. I wanted to hear his side of the story, and see what he was willing to do to heal me so I could still love him.
    And that's when I encountered the Memories of God.  It turns out that by learning the story of God's love for humanity, and discovering  his covenant relationship with his people, I found a comprehensive memory that told God's side of the story.  If my memories told me that God was wounding me, perhaps his memories would say something different. I had to find out, so I took a "leap of faith" and drew near to the one I feared the most. The results of that encounter make up the pages on this website.

    I was a Carmelite nun for three years, and now I'm a wife and a mother of four. I've experienced both aspects of battling and loving God, as a cloistered religious, and as a married woman. I wrote the Spiritual Journey coming from these two different angles, so I promise it's truly unique. It's not perfect by any means, but it's a lot more than what I've found any where else on the topic. 

    You can find the Spiritual Journey, for free on this website.


    "Carrie... I think you have done a fine job of showing how someone can deal with the pain of sexual abuse and be strengthened and healed by their faith in Jesus and the Catholic Church. You have used your three years as a cloistered Carmelite and your own happy marriage to write something that will be helpful to other people that have been abused. God's blessings on this project!"  

        ~Archbishop Michael J. Sheehan, Archdiocese of Santa Fe

    "Her whole journey is ultimately towards forgiveness (but not in an easy sappy, and therefore somehow wrong way), and therefore goes to the wound at the heart of the Church, in particular to the sexual and emotional abuse of children by priests. I am a firm believer that the world will be saved by beauty, and that stories are a form of beauty, and since few people are willing or able to tell this particular story I rejoice to pass (her website) on...Carrie hopes to make her story into a book one day and I think some publisher would be very lucky to have it" 

        ~Heather King, Author of Shirt of Flame: A Year With Saint Therese

    (You can read her blog about my website here:

    "Every time I reread those words of Carrie's, I am newly awed by how deeply she, in writing them, was thinking with the Church" 

        ~Dawn Eden, Author of My Peace I Give You, Healing Sexual Wounds With The Help Of The Saints

     (You can read her blog about my website here :

    If you'd like to contact me, you can send an email to:
    Carrie Bucalo



     O God of love, I turn to you now and ask you to be with me and to give me courage to embark on the spiritual journey of healing. I don’t want to do this alone.  I believe that you are here with me now. You offer me your help, and it is up to me to accept it. Sometimes I feel my heart is too closed to let you in, but even if it is open only a little I trust that you will make of it a perfect opportunity for your grace and your healing power to work in my life. I will give you what I can, and I trust that you will do the rest. Amen.


“Come, Holy Spirit, fill the hearts of your faithful and enkindle in them the fire of your love…

Send forth your spirit, and they shall be created, and you shall renew the face of the earth.

    Oh, God, who by the light of the Holy Spirit did instruct the hearts of your faithful. Grant that by the same Holy Spirit, we may be truly wise and ever rejoice in his consolations, through Christ, Our Lord. Amen.”


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